“Life can be beautiful if you remember to appreciate the little things, too. I take comfort in knowing that those who have harmed me may not receive the punishment I think they deserve, but I do believe that karma makes their lives less fulfilling than they want and worse than they may portray on social media, or to their shallow relationships, or even to themselves, always stuck in self-deception lacking love for themselves.”
I think that sometimes, when we still haven’t outgrown the Just World Fallacy, we can believe that bad people don’t receive their ‘karma.’ However, I tend to look at it in a way that helps me understand that I cannot always see the ‘karma’ being delivered to those individuals.
For instance, my worst abuser died the day I went to visit that side of my family. But he didn’t just die; he died painfully, twice, on the hot pavement from a heart attack at a gas station, in 90° heat with over 80% humidity. He died, and the paramedics brought him back to life, only for him to die painfully again.
Additionally, he was told by his heart doctor that very day that he was doing great and should ‘go have some fun’. He chose to go surfing, which was one of his favorite pastimes, and ironically, that was the very thing that prevented him from getting to a phone as urgently as he should have.
For a long time, I believed that this was God telling me, “This one is for you.” But as I began to ponder the details more deeply, I realized that he had stopped being healthy after he violently abused me for a year. He developed heart issues and suffered a heart attack after the worst of the abuse. He had to deal with frequent illness, constantly take medication, live with constant stress, couldn’t eat what he wanted, among many other things.
So while we may never see ‘karma’ acting on our behalf, I believe that sometimes karma manifests in more subtle ways that we can’t always perceive. I think traffickers, abusers, people who hurt children, and others who commit extremely harmful actions against those who don’t deserve it, suffer similar consequences.
Many like them may never know true love or how good it feels to be loved. If they are loved, it’s often not for who they truly are, but the façade ‘masks’ they wear they have to maintain to keep getting that love. They can never let loose or be genuinely happy because they harbor so much turmoil inside. If they lack inner turmoil, their relationships are likely shallow, perhaps even loveless, and they find themselves always seeking pleasure because they can never be at peace and content.
I used to think that the stupid amount of hardships I endured meant I had been like Hitler in a past life because I went through so much pain. However, I realized that my experiences have equipped me with the ability to write well, to connect with the broken, and to inspire and get them excited about their own recoveries.
I have an amazing husband and a child who blows my mind every day with their intelligence and self-awareness at a young age. I’ve been gifted with a incredibly smart partner who provides more than enough for us to survive and live comfortably, and we have no debt, which is rare at my young age. I have also been endowed with financial wisdom and other skills most don’t even know about me.
Life can be beautiful if you remember to appreciate the little things, too. I take comfort in knowing that those who have harmed me may not receive the punishment I think they deserve, but I do believe that karma makes their lives less fulfilling than they want and worse than they may portray on social media, or to their shallow relationships, or even to themselves, always stuck in self-deception lacking love for themselves.
Good intent and good deeds contribute to good karma and happier re-births, while bad intent and bad deeds contribute to bad karma and worse re-births. This re-birth may not be the one in which they face their punishment, but the laws of nature dictate that there must be balance.
A dictator might ‘win’ for a decade and kill millions, but he will eventually die, perhaps in fear, holed up in a small, dirty bunker, living out his final days unhappy before swallowing a cyanide capsule and shooting himself next to his wife. Ultimately, he will be remembered as an example of pure evil for all eternity; that’s all they’ll be, how they’ll be remembered, if at all.
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